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Hey there sinner
i’m adam nox and welcome to another episode of the cult of you
i got a question for you why demons i mean let’s be rational for a moment doesn’t that sound a little bit i don’t know loopy why would a sane individual want to work with demons everything we’ve heard steal your soul bind you for an eternity in hell cause all kinds of havoc i mean if you’ve seen the conjuring they don’t seem like the most pleasant type yet still despite this thousands upon thousands of practitioners increasingly by the numbers daily flock towards it yet at the same time we also see the negative fallouts of some of those practitioners but we also see very interesting patterns that emerge here today i want to discuss this subject in a little bit more detail and i want to help you understand why demons what the frame is behind this and how this was actually presented inside of the mystery schools for the initiate going through those stages and why it might not even be the right place for you to start but also how to find the secret power behind this simple idea that can start to transform a lot of the negativity in your life into pure delicious gold so without further ado sit back relax and remember to live deliciously waves [Music] [Music] i want to be honest with you when i first started on this path the entire idea of demons of the dark side is what i attributed to people that had mental health issues you know people that were so desperate to um for some kind of meaning or power in their lives that they were quite frankly lost or kind of like the whole hollywood or tv thing projected um were bad people they had bad intentions and things like that in fact when i was about 16 17 a young teenager just blossoming into spiritualism um learning to develop my clairvoyant psychic abilities i would even be the one that suggested in the meditation circle that you know i heard of a group of satanists or i heard of a group of demonologists and we should all please send light to these poor lost souls now i’m not saying that those individuals were necessarily enlightened in any way i’m just pointing out my frame as an individual at that time this is not a judgment on the practitioners that i was pointing out at that point of their ability or their label the fact is i didn’t know them i didn’t know their label these were just street stories of the evil satanist and the evilness and the evil that yet the more i progressed in my path i progressed up the normal side of the tree after i went through all the different religions and practices because i went through everything in the search for god you know i didn’t find enough god in christianity i didn’t rebel against christianity i just didn’t find it there you know i looked through everything and there were more flaws and the more flaws i found the more i searched to try to understand what was really behind that biblical text where did it come from what was the frame what were these people thinking that led me into kabbalah that led me into a number of other ancient religions and studies i practiced buddhism i practiced islamic traditions i practiced every single thing under the sun and not an entry level i went and lived it you know i went and got myself so immersed inside of it and for the bulk of it and the largest portion of my life i could not still accept that idea it was still a good versus evil mindset yet at one point in a meditation journey in a circle somebody looked at me and they still said wow it’s it’s like a roller coaster in there you need balance like there’s another part of you that wasn’t balanced and you know at that point i thought you know maybe this is my expression of spirituality and materialism you know the old shouldn’t be too rich kind of a thing so i resolved that conflict and realized it could be spiritual and i could be good in business you know i could progress in these other areas but still this thing haunted me this peril haunted me and no matter how far i moved up the tree of life the most consistent factor was pain you know no matter there would be these periods of toxic positivity so to speak where everything’s light and love and i’m only supposed to see god but secretly denying and repressing the darkness you know because that’s the thing that i need to shun quite unquote and maybe if i fill myself with more light and more light and more you know names of god and more high magic positive power that would kind of go away it didn’t it got worse in many ways and in more tragic ways so it moved from intimate relationships and betrayals and all kinds of things and even though in many levels i was greatly successful i had so much progress in so many areas i still didn’t free myself from that loop you know from that massive duality dive where some days life was great and then for a series of weeks life was terrible and then i’d come back out of it and i think a lot of us find ourselves in that and there’s this common philosophy around demonologists and you know practitioners of the left-hand path that when you start invoking or evoking or working with the demons that these forces will break havoc upon your life now firstly let’s address that the force wreaking havoc on your life is simply you in essence and what i mean by that is that you set an objective for yourself for a higher quality of life the problem is the reason you don’t have that in your life right now is because of the hallucination of who you believe you are and how that’s constructed up your ego and your hallucination of self that means that’s the thing that has to be dismantled and how is that thing set up in your brain through your association to people places times things and events so when you create a vibrational shift within yourself those are the things that are going to die those are the things they’re going to sacrifice those are the things that have to let go because you ultimately die in a way in an alchemical way you initiate the old you you release and you transmute this is the process of maturing in and of itself you know we don’t mature through how many books we read or how much age we’ve got behind us we pretty much mature through how much pain we’ve overcome and become stronger as a result for because if we don’t become stronger as a result of pain you know the result is illness and ultimately death you know when we give up in the face of adversity that’s the end of our story victor frankl in his work on logo therapy was exploring the subject inside of the concentration camps and he was noticing what was the difference between people that in that situation would just shrivel up almost and die give up completely and start being taken over by disease and illness versus some inside of such a horrific time you know for the jewish people during the holocaust who actually seemed to become stronger more vibrant more powerful even though they were all in the same situation same torture the difference he found was the meaning the meaning that these individuals attached to the situation where some people’s meaning was like oh it’s the end it’s over we might as well just give up and that was their result that was their reality the difference for these others was i have to survive because i have to make sure this never happens again i have to change this this buck has to stop with me i will survive because i mean the world needs to hear about this this you know crime the difference was in the meaning now meaning is a fundamentally important idea because in occultism and in spirituality and in magic in the mystery traditions meaning is the concept that we attribute in the pentagram to spirit so we are always looking for the meaning behind things and the reason we’re looking for the meaning behind things is if we can find the core meaning the why something exists we can come to recognize its logos its vibration its pattern its essential energy and if i look at the various components of my life that seem to be in duress or distress or competing in this duality and this opposite you know it’s good and i can figure out what is their purpose what are they what purpose are they trying to serve because the fundamental frame of the occultist is the universe is me and i am the universe that means we’re all trying to aim for the same thing at the end of the day you know i don’t want to destroy myself because there’s no purpose i would destroy my limitations but ultimately if i’m everything and everything is me we’re all one with god we’re all one god we’re always looking for evolution we’re always looking for the best this is why we crave these things so even the parts of myself and my reality that seem destructive and seem negative inherently have some idea behind them or some empowering concept behind this and this gives us dawn to the concept of the daemon or the concept of the demon now firstly i don’t advise if you’re new to the path that you simply begin with demonic work in fact i think that’s something you do when you’ve already like become a bit of an addict you’ve worked through your traumas you work through your pains you work through your struggles and this is also an idea echoed by the works of kin of grant and crowley many others also share the same philosophy one in which the practitioner moves progressively in their psyche up the tree of life in other words you deal with your attachment issues your attachment wounds you deal with developing your four archetypes your elemental dimensions you then cultivate your planetary dimensions to a degree and recognize how this is all from you and not from the world and you take ownership you apply active imagination and dream interpretation to work with this god within this giant collective unconscious or personal unconscious that then gives you access to the collective unconscious as you grow in your capacity then only do you reach beena or the sphere of understanding the progenerator of the holy spirit the great shechina the holy spirit the mother of the matrix and only there are you swallowed up by the dragon’s head into da’at the fallen sephiroth into the fallen side of the tree so you can resurrect the cleopathic round purify it and even if you explore cleopathic text if you read for example the work of thomas carlson and kabbalah clip-off and graphic magic he highlights that before the the clip of during the shattering there was still the light it was the light it was this that shattered the spheres couldn’t handle the light so even in the clip-off there’s that light there is that quintessential light known as the sur that needs to be resurrected or purified in order to do this see this is where our secret paradigm comes in once an addict or a practitioner has moved through lisa they’ve got all these other areas in their lives sorted out they’ve done their basic shadow work now they’re ready to start dealing with the collective shadow as well as the deeper parts that were far more traumatizing from their past you know but they they’re already kind of stable they’ve done it they’ve got the tools they’re inno they’re strong in their inner strength they’re ready for that then they begin being introduced to a new set of narratives you see if we study psycho psychology we look specifically at jungian psychology we look at the work of robert moore um robert johnson and many of these other great thinkers in you know of our time inside of that young and so on and on we find that all of them say the same thing you know the only way we’re working with the unconscious is if we’re using active imagination we’re getting involved in it and a beautiful quote for me from robert johnson was if you do not go to the spirit again you’re unconscious it will come to you in the form of neuroses depression and all these other issues so what are those look at that for a moment neuroses depression anger hate betrayal all the negative emotions are the same attributed qualities that we would attribute to the demons of the cleopathic tree you know one demon is you know a god like lilith is the goddess of lust you know and cruelty in certain ways you know samayal is um or adramek is the is the lord of insanity and madness you know it’s a biola is the lord of anger and wrath these are all human emotions they’re human states they are the negative aspects of our nature as individuals the difference though is that the added that is at the stage in their development or in their progress they are building archetypes or they’re building relationships with archetypes that changes the landscape you see a simple way to understand this is we look at a basic idea from you know motivational teacher and nlp coach anthony robbins anthony robbins when he talks about emotional mastery and not just him anyone that you go to that talks about emotional mastery says the problem when we have negative emotions is that we repress them the key is not to repress them or just express them wildly but to essentially find a meaning that is empowering because the second you find a meaning that is empowering behind a negative energy the second you see the nitsuitsu the second you see the light inside of the fallen then and then only can you resurrect and reintegrate or mature that part of yourself in a way that now gives you power to go to the next level you see he does a very simple example he says that your negative emotions are just action signals so all these negative feelings are just action signals and then he gives examples and many other authors give other examples for example loneliness or rejection is only something that you experience when you’re not meeting your own standard so he’s changing the rules essentially and that then becomes an action signal that’s the key here true understanding of the psychology now obviously there’s much more to this in the practice of magic and the occult arenas there’s many dimensions or many layers to this truth you know there’s many levels of manifestation but we’re not in an initiatory structure we can’t explore those together over a youtube channel or something like that but what we can do is share the psychological tools that will equip you on how to deal with that and that my friends is the purpose of those narratives that’s the purpose of these mythologies and these stories that you hear of the dark side of the tree and the demons and the things that dwell there and their nature the essence is the same as the principle of kali or the idea of kali where some seriously the lord of goddess of chaos and of destruction in other aspects she’s also the goddess of time the mastery of time you see because if you think about it if i go out and i go train in a martial art at first it’s chaos it’s kali i’m being beaten i’m being slapped but with all the punches that i’m taking what gets better my timing where i at first is in the chaos and i don’t see a punch coming the more i take that pain and the more i go oh this is good i’m learning i’m growing this is going to give me mastery over timing over my sequence over my speed now i’ve taken the negative energy and i found its nutsutsu i found its empowering hidden secret so i want you to reevaluate some of these demons and ask yourself why do they exist in the first place you see many would even look at the other aspect of that and simply say oh it’s because of vengeance or anger or something like that people want to curse i believe it goes a bit deeper you know the ones that persist you know in that sense i don’t say those things don’t exist but as i mentioned earlier that’s a subject that’s a more complicated discussion you know and we’re not going to be able to cover that in a single episode but if we look at for example take the translations just on the archangels and the ark demons in terms of the kabbalah if we look in the front side of the tree we see the archangel metatron metatron roughly translates as he who is inside of the presence of god now presence here being a key word because think about it when you’re truly inside of a situation and you’re inside of control you’re here you’re making your inflow states flow states is the state of being in presence you’re in presence okay even the concept of god is known as the i yin as in the no thing in other words an idea was it that hasn’t been limited or frozen into time and space why is that important because why do you suffer we suffer because we get stuck in a certain thing in time and space we lock ourselves inside of that and it’s due to that we’re unable to move you suffer about your past as long as you’re holding on to your past but the moment you let that go you’re suddenly freed from it and you’re able to be present so based on that our suffering really happens when we get too stuck on the past to stuck on the future too attached to people places times things and events as dr joe dispenza likes to point out these are the conditions by which we limit and attach ourselves in the neocortex versus the full expanse of the probability that we call the divine that is within ourselves now if we look in at the translation of the name or the association of the name inside of the kabbalistic text of samuel we find a translation of he who is outside of the presence and if we even go and we look at the correspondence and we see samayal and where it’s attributed to we find very often that samael even though there is the klippa samael which attributes to mercury which attributes the intellect in other words the probability of me disconnecting between my heart and my head going so caught up in my mind but it also then isolates sam island attribution usually to the spear of gamma lil in attribution with lilith asam of arthur did this way it also reflects the moon the subconscious also our sexuality at a very deep level but more specifically our sexual identity giving us a very clear roadmap of how we can come back into prisons where we’re actually stuck hence the concept of a diamond being a guide if we go and we study the history of these things if we go and we study the correspondence kabbalistically of these things and we start to understand the fundamental premise that we’re as the first law of the magi always seeking a meaning that empowers us then we’re able to find the light inside of the darkness the calm inside of the chaos which again is the principle of zen think even of the ideologies of the igori the ergory inside of their practice they devote themselves to become closer to death the practitioners of santa muerta they devote themselves in changing the meaning and the relationship that they have with what most people consider a negative as such freeing themselves psychologically and emotionally from the slavery to that if i look at things happening in my life if things don’t go well if there’s poverty or there’s pain or there’s illness i don’t go oh what was me i’m so bad i’m not saying that i don’t feel bad i mean obviously it’s going to happen you’re going to get shot you’re going to get knocked down life’s going to happen the difference is the core psychology i go a bad situation and i have a set of archetypes attributed that represents the rulership of that and i go hmm belisle’s giving me the strength to overcome my weaknesses this is going to make me stronger and make me more powerful in the end my attitude and my meaning are different and because my attitude and my meaning attributed to the situation my and my default narrative i have all these narratives of you know that entity that overcomes pain that is the ruler of pain so when i see myself burning and i’m suffering through some agony or some sorrow because of a betrayal or something like that i don’t feel despair i don’t let that emotion turn into despair i immediately see an old demonic force that represents itself in flames and in fire and i go this is the transmutation because what is that entity as well that entity is then the power over xyz the grimmers are full of attributes and idea that means if i master this by mastering this negative in my life by transforming by finding its beauty by learning the lessons i’m going to become these things i’m going to attain that part of myself it’s not an overnight process it’s not a simple thing and i want you to consider this philosophy a little bit because if it was the way so many people make it out to be that they just throw up a couple of candles chant a bunch of words and some entity come and fixes their life for them you already know my feelings about that i don’t believe in giving your power away i believe in finding your power within and using these metaphors these stories these parts of the history of narrative and asking why have these things continue to rise from the depths of our collective unconscious and continue to survive and grow inside of our society if there isn’t a narrative value to them in our culture you see as joseph campbell said every religion is true in that the symbolism is true if we look deeper what is the meaning of these names what is the shape and design of that sigil what does it mean and what is the empowering meaning for my life for myself i get to perceive the darker mysteries from a completely different vantage point now again i’ve already illustrated that there is obviously more to that as there is more to our development as individuals once we enter our own unconscious and we begin to reorganize things there work with it there and get in touch with those archetypes we find out how real they can be and how that moves past our personal space into the trans personal space that’s a completely different discussion but i want you to understand that the philosophy was not that you’d start off with these damage you work your way up the tree of life then you progress through the dark soda tree and again with the advancements that we have in therapy and neuroscience and nlp and all these other technology it makes sense that people will not take the other days we got more information more knowledge to work on these deeper sides but understand that just picking up a grimoire grabbing a sigil doing a practice like that could be harmful because if you haven’t built a relationship with the basic archetypes in your psyche to suddenly now try to work with one that is far more complex could cause more chaos than good especially if you don’t know how to integrate that or if you have narratives inside of you that contradict this part of you you’re going to create a tear inside of your psyche and that despair you will go oh this is the evil demon well it’s because we’ve attributed the demon to the concept of despair but if we then study the neural map kabbalistically of where that’s attributed to what path to what tree to what correspondence now we’re getting the ideas and the clues the same way as a turret reading would to reveal to you a different meaning in a different perception so don’t rush your process do the work systemically and progressively it’s not about competing with others it’s not about being up to date with the latest trend or the latest groomer this is an ancient practice it’s a personal practice if it takes you lifetimes that’s fine what is important is not how many people agree with you what is important is how are you agreeing with your progress can you measure that progress are you seeing results because if you’re not maybe maybe you’re caught up in an intellectual fantasy you know are you practicing things from grammar or certain statements or from books of certain statements if you’re not seeing those results maybe it’s time to reevaluate the idea because there is a science behind faith a science behind magic a science behind religion and you should be able to measure the progress i’m not an advocate of some kind of supernatural grandiosity that claims some power is going to save your life you are going gonna save your life you are gonna transform your world and become the king queen or ruler that your world and the people in our world deserve but you’re only gonna get there through making peace with the demons inside of you if you’re not even there with the specific collective unconscious aspects of the shadow begin with the shadow within yourself today begin with your hatred your anger your disappointment why do you cut people off why do you just do this and i’m guilty of this myself there’s no immunity to this you’re just gonna progress and improve as you go you know it’s like a like getting an illness or the flu at first you get it you know because you have weak immunity but then your immunity gets stronger and then it’s less effective on you but then you could still take a vacation break and binge on food too much and still get hit by the thing you know awareness is not immunity awareness itself is not accurate knowledge alone is not the solution knowledge applied practically so i want to invite you as i close this conversation off today to do a very quick exercise for me at home or tonight i want you to put the grimoire down put the book down put the references to anything else out there done and the how you’re supposed to do ritual how you’re supposed to do any of that i want you simply to get engaged in an active imagination exercise um with your own higher self or whispered and i just want you to flow that through to the point where you can lose touch with yourself you know your personnel your attachment to people places times things and events and then when you’re done write all of that stuff down and then simply look at it symbolically and ask yourself what does all this mean what is this telling me that’s the beginning of the most important conversation you can have the conversation with the god within you i’m adam knox and i hope you enjoyed today’s episode and remember to live deliciously i’ve always felt a little different a little uneasy between regular a bit of a dreamer a lost cause a little non-ordinary some would say i think i’ve always just been this way my mother said i was special my father thought i should be feared but i knew that witchcraft coursed through my veins the first time i tasted the lips of the goddess inside the right yes i’m a witch it’s true and sure we are the ones who believe in the beauty of nature who believe in the things science absent of art cannot explain who instead of religion would have romance and sure you may think we have lost our way when in the world of predictable things we have such unfamiliar things that we would like to say but maybe in a world so cold and alone a little unfamiliar is exactly what is needed to show us the way home